when jesus makes me coffee

In the early winter blue, coffee is fundamental to even live. It’s barely enough motivation to leave the comfort and darkness of my bedroom to face the day, especially when that day is Friday. Coffee is my bitter, steaming friend who knows I can’t function without it. Coffee in the cold mornings of a Chicagoan…

only read if you don’t want to be inspired or impressed

I go through these seasons- lament, comfort, lament, happiness, lament, confusion. Tonight, I feel confused. Chicago has obviously been a difficult transition for me. I’ve wept, cried out to God, hated my job, and felt empty and lost. Chicago has been the most trying locale I’ve experienced to date. I’ve learned the lay of the…

under21

“What was it like to get married so young? What would be a piece of advice for other young brides, from your own experience?”   Getting married at 19 felt normal to me, because I was completely convinced (and still am) that my husband was exactly who I was designed to be with. I knew….

Virginia

I remember. I remember the humid days, the long hours outside, riding my bicycle, swimming with friends. The time indoors only spent drinking liquids to replenish all the water that had been lost in our sweat. Running into the house, flinging the door open, with friends trailing behind as if they were born from the…

When Everything Is Bland- A Longer Post

This is a subject and season that I am now experiencing, that I feel as though I have read little Christian writing on, or heard many sermons about. As some of you have kept up with our life in Chicago, I have experienced such deep despair and anxiety and valleys here. But those times are…

bloom, lovely one

That this may benefit others, inform those who love us, and would encourage the body that He is here. I’ve noticed that I haven’t written in a long while since I last communicated the lowliness that had seemed to fill my life. And that hasn’t changed too much, but I have grown in a great…

lamenting and discomfort

Living in Chicago has been difficult for me. I’m away from my close friendships in Jackson, I’m missing the comforts of a small town, I’m feeling fearful, more than ever. I hear roughly six separate sirens per day from my new job location, and it’s incredibly disheartening. The hurt, pain, and separation of people in…

It’s just like riding a bike

  This picture was taken after my husband, and our dear friends Matt and Jill, successfully took me on my very first bike ride here in Chicago. We rode at night, and it was sweet. I didn’t learn to ride a bike until I was 12 because I was stubborn as a child. So, I’m…

six months

Alec and I have been married for 6 months today! I can’t even believe that it’s been that long already. When I was in high school, and adults would tell me that life begins to fly by, and go faster and faster as time goes on, I didn’t believe them. But looking at how quickly…

Pattins to move

Big news in a small amount of time: We will be moving to Chicago! Alec and I decided in the fall of 2016 to apply to Moody Bible Institute to attend starting this approaching August. We want to finish our degrees that we began at New Tribes, and hopefully learn some new things along the…

Sheep’s sin

Lately, I’ve seen my sin a lot. I’ve seen it when I am quick with my dog when he is being stubborn and disobedient, parenting in frustration. I’ve seen it a TON with my beloved husband, who loves and serves me endlessly, when he makes one choice I don’t like. I get angry and hurt…

Advent 

For those that are staunchly opposed to all things Christmas prior to the start of December, don’t close your eyes to this post yet. As I’ve listened to Penny and Sparrow’s new album, entitled “Christmas Songs,” I am reminded now more than any other time of the extreme and incredible sacrifice God made when He…